New Moon …. the time to plant new seeds and encourage yourself to make goals or let go of those trials and tribulations that seem to have a hold of us. It is almost a sign of a new beginning that apparently happens on the 11/11 date. Not sure if true or not but no harm in believing in something good.
If this is true, as they say, then it explains why today has been one of those days with racing thoughts that have been clouding my mind all day long. I’ve had the opportunity to have a lot of time to myself this week. Ironically along with this new moon date, this week I have been doing some fall cleaning or as I like to call it “purging”. Some people go out dancing or play some sport in times of stress or just feeling out of it; I, on the other hand, like to take it all apart and put it back together. Sometimes just getting rid of even the most random of things in your everyday surroundings makes you feel better. It gives you that feeling of allowing something else in your life, something good that has been blocked by clutter you surround yourself with. In the past few days, I’ve had a lot of time to think about this past year. It is insane that just yesterday it was January and I had come back from trips where I made certain promises to myself. I broke a lot if not all of them, something I am not proud of.
I am an eternal optimist at heart and want to believe in the good in people and situations. If I’ve learned one lesson this year is that point of view has sometimes gotten me in trouble or worse, thrown me back into previous cycles that have been either destructive or hurtful. It is easy to get caught up in a situation where you think sticking it out will make it better. The intentions here are good but at what price? Sometimes being patient and too giving of your time will cause you to be adhere to that situation. It is almost as if you’re in this stagnant time zone where since nothing is changing you keep reliving what you swore to move away from.
So if today is true and about new beginnings, then the seed I am planting today is that of being an individual who is not scared of change. I always thought I was so open to it but it is not until recently that certain decisions have made me realize how terrified I seem to be of it. Still, after certain time all I know is that this fear will only hold me back from the things I want in my life. Hopefully from here on out I can make this seed grow and blossom to everything I truly want in my life. I want to not be scared and to allow myself receive the good things, the kind of out of this world amazing stuff I deserve in all areas of my life.
New moon… start letting that light glow.
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